So, I just wanted to share a simple thing that God spoke to my heart about my depression today. He told me, it’s time to work on my depression. He told me I’ve been sad for years, and inconsolable, and it’s time to let go of that and let God’s comfort reach my heart. He told me I have many blessings to count, and that it would do me good to do so. He didn’t condemn me for feeling sad, but He gently told me that I’ve got a problem with grief.
This is very, very true. I’ve been inconsolably depressed for many years, and while I lean on God often and cry to Him about it, it hasn’t been going away. I think it’s time to just make up my mind to let it go, and to rejoice on purpose. To CHOOSE joy. Because I’m so tired of letting my broken heart rule my life. It’s messing me up, and it’s killing me. 2 Corinthians 7:10 says:
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.
And honestly, it could lead to suicide if I let it go on any longer. It has definitely led to sin so far, many times. Like drunkenness and indulging in bad things to try to take the pain away. I know God doesn’t want this for me. I’m a saved, born again Christian, and a child of God. I have missed out on the joy of the Lord for so many years now because I’ve got a broody temperament, and I’m sick of it.
So, I’m not saying it’s wrong to be depressed, but it’s not good for anyone either. It’s not a sin in itself, but it leads to desperate, sinful attempts to stop the pain.
So, I am casting off depression today. With force. I can’t say what tomorrow will bring. I can’t promise I’ll never get depressed again. I can’t promise anything, because I can’t predict the future. But just for today, I’m saying no to grief and bitter sorrow and yes to joy and peace. One day at a time is all we can really do as human beings. So today, the joy of the Lord is my strength. Hopefully, tomorrow and all the tomorrows afterward will be that way too. Feel free to join me in intentionally choosing joy and peace, if you find that you can relate. Big hugs from me to you if you’re feeling sad today, and hang in there if you are. Start seeking joy and peace. Reach for the light, and don’t stay in the darkness on purpose like I have done at times, if you can help it. While depression drains strength and life from you, the joy of the Lord gives strength. Don’t believe me? I’ll leave you with this:
10 Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”